If someone would have told me last Sunday that Katie Kat would be gone by this Sunday, I would tell them that’s not possible. But that’s what happened. My beautiful Katie Kat, who would have been 19 in April, has crossed over the Rainbow Bridge.
I loved her so much and I will miss her so much, but I’m already marveling at exactly how this played out on so many fronts. The amazing thing is that, literally one year ago (a few days before I was leaving for our Egypt trip), I took Katie Kat in for a routine visit at the vet, they did an x-ray and found a mass. I consulted my wonderful pet psychic, Sharon, and Katie Kat told me (through Sharon), “I’ve decided to transition while you’re in Egypt because you’re still so connected to me, I can’t do it while you’re here.” I cried, I begged, I pleaded, but Katie Kat was adamant, she had made up her mind, so I told her I would honor her decision. I left for Egypt, entrusting her care.
When I was in the Isis Temple in Philae, I said a prayer to Isis (the Divine Mother) asking for Katie Kat to be okay. I wasn’t asking that anything change, I didn’t want to interfere with her decision. I just asked that she be peaceful and complete. The next day I got a text from the person taking care of her saying “I don’t know what happened, but Katie Kat is eating and drinking again.”
I came home and Katie Kat looked fine. I did another session with the pet psychic and Katie Kat said “I changed my mind! I need to be here for her with Richard coming.” Katie Kat knew that my future husband was about to move to Sedona and she decided to hang around to make sure that he would be okay.
Richard moved to Sedona this past June and we got married in October. It made me so happy that she loved Richard so much. In the last weeks of her life, she took to sitting on his lap at night instead of mine (!) and in our last session, she told Sharon that “Richard has a pure heart” and she felt it was safe to leave me in his care.
About a month ago, when we noticed that Katie was deteriorating, we contacted Sharon and Katie Kat said, “I’m feeling really old, it doesn’t feel good, and I think I am going to go soon.” She told us that she was okay with being euthanized and she was pretty sure the was how we were going to have to go. She said “You’ll know when it’s time for me to go, there won’t be any question.”
Last Friday afternoon, I was sitting in my office and Katie was sitting in the sun. She tried to stand up, and fell down. Her back legs weren’t working.
Richard was at lunch with a buddy and they were supposed to play tennis after that. I called him and he came right home. I contacted Sharon and she was gracious enough to do an emergency session 2 hours later.
Katie told us “I’m ready to go. I’m hurting, I’m in pain. And I can leave now because Richard is here to take care of you.” She said she was okay with euthanasia and I asked her if she could just go on her own. She said she couldn’t, because her heart was still so strong. And it was true, her heart was beating like a machine.
We spent the rest of the hour talking it through, talking to our dogs Daisy and Missy (who were very distraught) and telling Katie Kat how much we loved her (and she told us the same).
The truly amazing thing is that Katie thanked me for allowing her to have a life where she was able to truly actualize and access her highest spiritual self. She told me her soul had chosen to be with me because we both knew this would happen. Sharon said she’s never worked with such a self-aware cat!
The next amazing thing happened Friday night. Since menopause, I have had sleep issues and have worked with one of our amazing practitioners, Leslee, who put together 2 natural elixirs that I use each night that put me to sleep and keep me asleep. I’ve been using them for a few years and they are great. I reorder them when I get even close to running out.
This past week I had spaced off re-ordering the elixirs. Finally, I ordered them and Leslee texted me they were ready right around the same time that Katie tried to stand up and couldn’t. I spaced picking them up because of everything going on with Katie Kat.
That night, after the session with Sharon, I went for the elixirs and they were empty. I went to bed and I was so exhausted that I fell asleep immediately. At 2 am, because I hadn’t had the elixir, I couldn’t stay asleep and I was wide awake and couldn’t get back to sleep. Katie Kat (who I had placed on the bed in her favorite spot, right between Richard and I) was also wide awake. So I just stayed with her for the next 2 hours with both of us just staring into each other’s eyes.
I kept telling her how much I loved her, that I would miss her, that I was okay with letting her go (Sharon said that was important) and I was thinking about all the wonderful times we had together.
I feel so blessed that I was able to have this very special time with Katie Kat, it comforts me so much. I’m a huge believer in coincidences and synchronicities. I know that my teacher would say that the Universe completely conspired for me to space off ordering the elixirs and then space off picking up the elixirs just so I would wake up at 2 am to be with her. Can you imagine everything that had to happen to make that happen?
The next morning, they told us the vet would come to the house around noon, and I appreciate so much that our vet provides that in-home service. I stayed in bed all morning with Katie Kat (that was always her favorite place to be with me). Around 10 am I remembered how much she loved to sit in the sun. But I was concerned to move her, because every time I did, she would yelp in pain.
Finally I picked up the blanket and put her in the sun. She didn’t yelp and suddenly stretched out her legs luxuriously. She so loved being in the sun. Do you see Daisy’s paw at the bottom of the picture? She wanted to be with with Katie Kat too.
I laid there for a long time with her on the floor and then the vet called to say they were on their way. Richard said “I want to take her out to see the red rocks one more time.” He was holding her and for 19 years she would never let me (or anyone else hold her). After a few minutes, I took her from him and I got to hold her. When the vet came, she said that I could hold her until the end. Which I did. It was so amazing to me that after 19 years I finally got to hold her in my arms at the end.
She was such an amazing being. I rescued her just a few months after my first trip to Sedona in 1999. She and her brothers had been left in a box on the side of a country road outside Omaha. Can you imagine someone doing that? When I got her she was so tiny and small, and so frightened of everything that it took a month of acclimating her so that she would come out from under the bed. She moved to Sedona with me in 2002, making the trek across the country.
One of my favorite stories about her happened eight years ago when my ex husband Tom and I ended our marriage. Tom immediately moved to Bali. It was very sudden and our dog, Daisy, started moping around and lying by the front door, as if she were waiting for him to come home. It broke my heart. Then she started peeing on one of my Egyptian rugs. I contacted Sharon for the first time and told her I wanted to do a session. She does the sessions on the phone and when she called me, she suddenly said, “Do you have a cat?” And I said, “Yes, Katie Kat.” She said, “I thought you only had a dog and the minute I started talking with you the cat is saying all this stuff to me, she just keeps on talking.”
I told her it was the dog I wanted to her to speak with and she asked what I wanted to tell Daisy. I said to her “Please tell Daisy that Mommy and Daddy are getting a divorce, it’s not her fault, we both love her very much, but Tom is not coming back.” She told Daisy and Daisy replied, “I know, the cat told me!”
That was Katie Kat — very wise and trying to help everybody. Daisy never peed on the rug again.
I love this photo of them – this 8 pound cat and this 100 pound dog!
I loved her so much and I know she’s going to be with me for a while. One of my intuitive friends told me to look out for her in Egypt – that she’ll be showing me some signs.
As you read this on Sunday, we are on our way to Egypt with our group and I’ll be looking for some signs of my beloved little Katie. Please send some love and light for her and for me — it helps my broken heart.
My neighbor and dear friend sent me this from the French poet Anatole France:
“Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened.”
Katie Kat certainly awakened a part of my soul, and I will love her forever. Safe journeys, my sweet little girl.
February 11, 2018
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