Our beloved Daisy passed away this past week and worse, she passed while we were in Egypt. I wasn’t able to be with her and that has been devastating for me.
In late January, we discovered that Daisy had lymphoma, with one tumor in her heart cavity and another on her spleen. At the time she told us through our pet psychic, Sharon, that “my work here isn’t done” and she felt very strongly that she could heal.
She told us she wanted us to do everything we could. We were working with two vets, our regular vet, who was doing chemo, and our homeopathic vet. She was taking 25 supplements and we were using Young Living oils on her, especially Frankincense on the location of the tumors, and putting her on the Bemer twice each day.
In the first week of chemo, it looked as if she was responding, as her white blood cell count went down dramatically and her red blood cell count increased dramatically. But by the third week, things were starting to go in the other direction.
We were in weekly contact with her through Sharon and just before we left for Egypt, she told us that she very much wanted to heal and felt that she would. The first week we were in Egypt her beloved caregiver, Terri, sent us a video of her romping and playing with the other dogs. And then in the second week she wasn’t interested in food. We did another session with Terri and Daisy said she still wanted to heal, but for the first time she said that if she didn’t, she could accept that.
She also told us that there was a white-gold light that she was starting to see that was making her feel really good and that our sweet Katie Kat (who passed last year just before the Egypt trip) was with her, helping her. She said “if I do go, I can’t go until you get back, it won’t be possible for me to go if I’m not with you.” But two days later, our sweet girl was gone.
We spoke with her tonight through Sharon and she told us that Katie Kat was still with her, helping her. At the time of her passing, Katie was saying to her “I’ve got you, we’re helping you, you won’t get lost, we’ve got you.” And then she said that she felt so much love on the other side and it just sort of took her in.
As Sharon said, “Katie Kat shows this force of love magnetizing her out of her body.” Isn’t that beautiful? And it struck me that in the ceremony that we do in King’s Chamber, at the end, I have each participant whisper in my ear “I am the mighty, living force of love.” And now, just 3 days later, Katie Kat was telling us about a “force of love” that was magnetizing Daisy out of her body and over to the other side.
Daisy was the sweetest, most wonderful dog. She was so beautiful and she absolutely loved everyone. She was a big golden retriever/yellow lab mix (100 pounds) and one of her things was that she was always jumping up on people. She would jump on people who would come to the house and strangers when we were hiking, and it was very overwhelming for a lot of people to have this hundred pound dog jump on them.
When I tried to get her to stop through training and speaking with Sharon, she told me “the people I jump on need more joy in their lives and I’m jumping on them to give it to them.” She simply wouldn’t stop the jumping, she just had to spread that joy around!
Her brother, Boulder, lives in Oak Creek Canyon with my dear friend Ranjita and it will be very comforting for me to spend time with him. They’re so identical that when they were running and jumping, I had to look at their collars to make sure who was who. But it will be bittersweet to be with him as well.
Daisy’s amazing entrance into my life…
I have felt so blessed to have had communication with Daisy throughout her entire life with the amazing people I’ve worked with. It has brought me to such an incredible appreciation of these beings and who they are. And it started with how Daisy came into my life in the first place.
Our beloved dog, Emma (a golden retriever/English springer spaniel mix), passed very suddenly 2 weeks before our Peru trip in 2009. She’d been having some pain in her shoulder and suddenly woke up at 5:30 am, vomited, and one hour later she was gone. We connected with an amazing psychic, Tara, and Emma told us “I’m going to help you find your next dog,” to which I responded, “I don’t want another dog, I want you.”
After we returned from Peru in April, we Googled “Golden retriever mix” and found breeders in Phoenix who breed dogs who are 3/4 Golden and 1/4 Yellow Lab. They had a wait list of over 30 people and said it would probably be 2 years until we could get a dog through them. They said they weren’t going to breed Honey until the fall, but then we suddenly received a group email from them saying that Honey had gone into heat.
They had sequestered her in their Arizona room, but a storm came up and a sudden gust of wind blew the door open, and they thought she and Luke had “done the deed”; if so, there would be puppies by July. We let them know we wanted one of the potential puppies and then received an email that they were quite surprised that all but one of the 30 people on the list said they still wanted a puppy, they just didn’t want one right now and that we could have one of the puppies.
One week after the puppies were born (are they the cutest or what?) we did another session with Tara to connect with Emma. We hadn’t told Tara about the puppies and suddenly when Emma came in, Tara said “what’s happening, Emma says you already have another puppy and she says, ‘How do you like how I blew the door open?’”
So our sweet Emma brought us our sweet Daisy.
In all the sessions with Sharon over the years, one of the things that came through all the time is that Daisy had a core wounding. Some of it came from a past life that she had with Boulder and I where there was a flood. Boulder and I were swept away and Daisy tried to save us, but Boulder and I drowned and Daisy died trying to save us. She felt that she hadn’t done enough and brought that “I’m not enough” into this lifetime.
When my ex-husband and I divorced, Daisy felt abandoned and that she had done something to cause it, and no matter what we told her and explained to her, just like children of divorce, she took that on and it intensified her feelings of “not-enoughness.” Sharon and I used to joke that Daisy needed a Soul Adventures retreat, because just telling someone they are enough isn’t enough for them to believe – they have to have something happen so that they “get it.”
No matter how much I told her or showed her that I loved her, it was never quite enough.
Somehow when my dear husband Richard came into our lives two years ago, Daisy fell in love again. She loved Richard so much and wanted to please him, and would always say she was trying to be a good girl for him, trying to be “good enough.”
Finally, in our last two sessions with Sharon, Daisy said she finally “got it.” She said she finally felt a complete love. She finally got it that she was good enough, that she didn’t have to do anything to be loved except to be her own sweet self. I’m sobbing as I write these words, because I love it so much that she finally really “got it” and I feel that’s part of what was able to allow her to go into the light.
It’s been so bittersweet these past two years, as we lost Richard’s dog, Prancer, eighteen months ago, then Katie Kat one year ago and now Daisy. That’s us hiking in Sedona shortly after Richard moved here. We still have our sweet Missy and we thank God for her.
Our four legged friends are such a blessing. They are their own little beings, with their own complexities and such a deep capacity for love. They bring us such joy and it’s so painful when they leave. Sharon said Daisy is still with me, licking my face like she used to, so I’m trying to feel that. I certainly feel her love.
I love you, Daisy, you were such a huge part of my life. Thank you for coming into my life and being with me. I will never forget you.